You may have been wondering, where have all the cowgirls gone?
Why, oh why, have I been gone for SO long? Well, little babies, don’t worry. I’m still right here.
It’s confirmed, I have a wheat allergy. I did not test positive for Celiac, so that is excellent news – but I have had some serious dietary changes to make. This has been.. challenging. Do you have any freaking idea how much wheat the average American consumes on a daily basis?? A lot. I’m not going to bore you and depress my self by recounting all the things I cannot eat.
Today is a co-workers’ last day with the company, and I opted out of the cupcakes. (Cupcakes from HOUSE of CUPCAKES a FoodTV Cupcake Wars winner even!) For a moment, I considered getting a cupcake and eating the frosting off the top. Their peanut butter cup cupcakes are effing rediculous. But no, too tempting to override the misery I will feel hours from now if I only take a chomp of that delicious cakey goodness now.. Trust me, I’ve been cheating here and there, and then paying for it. The good news is that gluten-free products are more prevelant than ever. It’s hard to tell if it’s just a trend, but I know some folks who really cannot eat the stuff and have made significant dietary changes as a result. Seems I’m now one of them.
Anyway, the frosting – it was tempting and everyone knows I’m a sugar FIEND, but I actually went to the gym last night for the first time in like five weeks and I have to keep my eyes on the prize. Again. Now, you may be saying: Catherine – you are a broken record – we’ve heard this before. And to that point, I reply: Yes. It’s true. Get over it. This is mine, my journey. Not yours. I own my actions and results. I smoked cigarettes (sorry mom) for ten years and it took probably a good 20-30 times over a majority of those years to quit. But I did. I was never able to imagine what life would be like without smoking, but I made it – and most of the time, I don’t even remember that I used to smoke for days or weeks at a time. The point is, my journey is mine and I recognize that I haven’t been chronicling it with the same vigor as I did last year. There are a lot of really amazing things happening outside of the digital world for me, and to some extent I’ve been using that as an excuse. So, it’s another round of re-focusing for me. Slowly, but surely, I’m making progress – because this is not just about losing weight, it’s about wellness. It’s about feeling good, and identifying the wheat thing, as inconvenient as it may be, is a step in that direction.
So, today, friends – I celebrated my first free-bagel-friday with a gluten-free English muffin. And I loved every damn minute of it.
Spin class tomorrow morning. First one in like, 5 weeks? The gym felt great last night, so, I look forward to getting my ass kicked in all the best ways. I’ll check in with my weight soon. I’ve been hovering a few pounds above my last check in, so admittedly, I’m trying to get back down to that again.
As far as riding for realz goes – the weather is B-E-A-utiful!!! Makes me more than a little concerned about how July and August are going to feel, but I can’t do anything about that anyway so I’ll just be present and enjoy where I’m at in this moment. Riding has been easly pushed to the side for other projects, I need to set aside time in my schedule for that.
If it’s important to me, I’ll do it.
What’s important to you?